The Most Important Person

My life is like when someone dances in the dark. You know what you're doing but you can't seem to feel ashamed of it. I'm proud to be who I am and I don't care what people say or think about me. I’ve been through heartbreak, depression, anxiety and more. All I know is that I got through it, not because of someone else, but because of me.

I’m the most important person in MY LIFE.

Shivaji Zirekar



Shivaji beats hula hoop



I know Shivaji when joined at One Vale Project as Coops. I still remember when and where I met him for the first time, exactly when holiday weekend in Kucing Island. At that time I had two days moved to Gunung Batu.

Firstly I thought Shivaji is a serious person and less friendly, well maybe because of the way he looks so I felt like it. We’re at the same ship, he saw me dance like Indian dancers, mimicking Briptu Norman’s video. Suddenly he laughed out loud. At that moment I knew that he’s a kind and nice man, unlike what I think before.

Shavaji is a very nice guy. He's so funny, I really like how he laughed when I make jokes. Partner-in-crime. Although we rarely talk in the office because our seats are far apart, but when we met he was still friendly. Last Sunday morning Tati and I visited his home after playing badminton. At that time he was alone at home, because his two housemates, KK and Dag, were flyback.

In my visit we talked lots about anything. I talked about Indonesia and asked him about the nationality of the expatriates in our office. And he told me more. About his hometown (Mumbay), his wife and two kids, his honeymoon in Switzerland (oh makes me so envy!), college, his experiences travel around West Europe and worked in Germany, anything. I also asked questions about Indian culture, something that always interested me, and he explained everything I want to know. Before I came home he said that next week he’ll go to India and may never return back to Indonesia.

Last time I talked to him two days ago, when we’re in the pantry. I told him I think I'm in love with Mr.G, my Indian friend (oh yes, he know it). He smiled and said he swear Mr.G also feel it.

Today, he's gone. Suddenly, without said goodbye. I only knew it from an e-mail from Kenny. It was sad I couldn’t say goodbye, but I've sent an email to him. I swear office will miss him and his laugh around us.

Well, actually he really inspired me. How to be a hard-worker, get success in career, keep down-to-earth, love our family, and love our nation. Maybe you never think about it, or think it isn’t an important thing, but for me it teaches me to become someone better.

Farewell Shivaji. Thanks for everything. Be successful for you. Best regards from me to you and your family. I hope we can meet again, wherever and whenever it will be, someday…

One thing for sure, all the COOPers love you!

Television Isn't Bad At All

I'm not the type of person who likes to spend the time by watching TV. Most of my spare time is spent by reading books, listening to music, or with internet, writing on my blog. Even if I watch, I just watch DVDs on my laptop. Since I have a part-time job as a tutor and go home at 10 pm almost every day, I don’t have any time (and probably, no sense) to watch TV. I'd rather be in my room, doing other things that I like.

At my home in Makassar, there’re 11 national channels and 3 local channels. My mother and sister spend almost of their time with TV, I don’t know why they could be stand still like that. And now I’m in Sorowako, where there’s a cable TV with 41 national and international channels. I spend most of my time at home by sitting in the living room with friends who watched, and even, scramble channels they want to watch. Yeah, I was there, but I don’t really watch. I would rather concentrate on the laptop, internet, and my reading, to extent it sounded like "I don’t watch TV, TV watches me".

Okay, the reason why I’m less interested in watching TV is most of national TV show less qualified. For most people might be watch Opera Van Java or infotainment is interesting thing, but I still couldn’t find the interesting point. Starting from the soap operas that each episode showed scenes of weeping tears, comedy shows with not environmentally friendly (using lots of cork for property then destroyed it at the end of the show), until infotainment which doesn’t stop showing news about Krisdayanti’s pregnancy, unmarried pregnancy. I mean, oh come on... Is it the best that media can give to us? Even my Indian friend, Shivaji, said: "Why people look so interest with Norman. He just lipsync, try dancing Indian, upload it on You Tube, and finally be famous. That's it. Nothing interest at all”.

And what about the show for kids? Oh, sometimes it worse. The fact is my little sister, 10 years old, spend her time to watch soap operas and infotainment, too mature for young generation, huh? I still remember how I spent my childhood tim, watching the kid shows Sailormoon, Tralala Trilili, or Amigos. And look what TV showed today. Blah.

But hey, it still good. At least I can still find quality shows and educational. On The Spot, increase our knowledge with ‘7 facts…’. Celebrity on Vacation, watching them traveling around the world improve my obsession to be a backpacker someday. And last but not least, the National Geographic Channel. It’ll always be my favorite, how I grew up with knowledge from the channel and magazine, until today. It felt like I’ve travel around the world from what I watch and read. Maybe this isn’t directly affecting me, to go travel and see the whole world. And I love the way it happens.

Well, maybe television isn’t bad at all. I still have my favorite shows. And maybe I should have my favorite radio show, too… :)

What I Want, What I Wish

God,
I really am in love with this man.
I don't even know does he love me back or not,
these are what I'm gonna tell him everyday and everynight.
Dear God can you record it and repeat on his dreams?

I wish you could be my signal fire,
teach me how to dance and show me how to laugh.
I wish you could be my muse,
amaze me with your great brain and behaviour.

I wish you could tell me that you love me more than I did.
I wish you'll hear what I want you to hear.

I wish we could meet later.
I wish you'll be a greater lover.
I wish you'll understand how to make sure your own feeling faster.
I wish you'll learn how to love me better.
I wish you'll get the idea that loving me isn't a disaster.

I wish you'll be back.
I wish you'll remember me, remember us.
I wish you could take care of myself.
I wish there ain't no other woman.
I wish you'll spend your life with me.

I wish you won't cut your hair, let it grow longer.
I wish you'll always love blue, because it fits so cute on you.
I wish you'll never change the way you smile, it feels so sweet on me.
I wish you'll stay as familiar as you can.

I wish we could sit together every saturday night.
I wish I could talk to you about everything that I've been through.
I wish you'll listen to me and touch me everytime I babbling around.
I wish you can take control of me and yourself.

I wish you'll realize that I'm not a second choice.
I wish you'll catch me and leave the other girl.
I wish you'll get to know that no one hold you better than me.
I wish you'll call.

I wish you'll share your times to watch soccer with me, I can be your mate.
I wish you'll never touch cigarettes and beer, you know I can stop.
I wish you wanna listen to Mocca, Nouvelle Vague, or Copeland, I'll take you with me if they make a concert here.
I wish you study well for your future, I know how much you want that prestigious career.
I wish you'll have a better life.

I wish we could watch movie together, I wanna show you my favorite scene.
I wish you could take me to a yard and tell me that it's ok to want a picnic getaway.
I wish you'll tell me when you have to go somewhere, I only feel fear when you're not around.
I wish we could travel together, I'll show you my favorite places in the world.

I wish we could play the games together, hey I know I can beat you dude!
I wish we could make a funny expression when we had a webcam conversation.
I wish you could treat me well,and I'll too, as a bestfriend but more love involve.
I wish we could go to the party together, and you'll introduce me to your pals as your best mate.

I wish our story as perfect as a fairytale.
I wish you are you.
I wish 'we' could be true.
I wish.

Amen.

Seven Facts Why A Person Should Fall In Love With JEANU

Two days ago I told Govind, my Indian friend, about one Indonesian tv shows, On The Spot. The show was broadcast seven facts about anything in the world, from 7 ‘the most…’ countries in the world to 7 facts about Justin Bieber. The show was interesting, improved our knowledge about many things in the world.

Damn Govind is a romantic man, he then said, "I will also make it. And here are 7 facts why a person should fall in love with JEANU ". For your information, Jeanu is my Indian name, given by Govind. I thought he was just kidding, until he gave me the list. Here they are:

Seven facts why one should fall in love with Jeanu:

1. You’re very sweet, though I didn’t taste you till but I can say.
2. You’re the one with a big bag, full of love, and everyone wants that.
3. You’re very caring.
4. You always listen what other says and respect their thoughts.
5. You know how to respect people, whether of your age or elder then you.
6. You are very beautiful, no doubts about that.
7. You LOVE yourself so much that anyone can fall in love with you. You look so divine and pure as I say like an angel, and you’ll always love your partner more than he can handle.

It may seems too excessive, but I really, really like this. Knowing that there’s someone who can make a list like this for me is make me flattered. Although we don’t know each other for long time, but it seems we’re very close and know each other. It looks like he always pays attention to my movements and how my daily life. He did it, and his attention made ​​me feel very valued by him.

Well, I know this fact will never showed on tv, that's why I know this is very special and was created just for me. Weird and narcissistic, huh?  Call me mad, but that's the fact!

Thanks a lot, Govinto. You fill my world.

Boys Beat Kartini's Day

For all Indonesian women, SELAMAT HARI KARTINI! Okay, today I've heard and read lots of stories about the spirit of Kartini, inspired women, or even about kebaya, Indonesia's traditional clothing for women. Enough for it. Let's make something different!

Now I live with my 15 friends in a big home. Nine girls, 7 boys, 7 bedrooms, and 4 bathroom. Girls handle all of the kitchen things, from shopping in market, cooking, serve coffee in the morning, to wash the dishes (it's my job!). But because today is Kartini's Day, the girls decide that the boys had to do something to pamper all of us: COOKING FOR DINNER!

Victims: Dika, Anjun, and Paink. Yeah, they were only 3 of because the other 4 returned to Makassar for the long weekend. They finally act in the kitchen, cooking for our dinner. Here are their performance:

Dhika beats tempe

 

Paink serves sambals



Anjun hadles vegetables

And the result is... Guess what? It was SO DELICIOUS! I didn't think that they could served the food, although everything was very simple. At least the sambal was very tasty because Paink served it very spicy as I'm a robust chili eater. And I've got the bonus: Cheese Fried Banana served by Paink. He'd fulfilled my request. Yes, girls felt like queens!

Thanks a lot, boys! You did it. Four thumbs up from me!

Well maybe it was quite riddiculous, but it was still deserved to be appreciated.

Happy Kartini's Day! ;)

Kartini's Day Gift

I just told my Indian boy, Govind, that today we celebrate Kartini's Day, an Indonesian historical woman's figure. How she became inspiration for all Indonesian women and how she struggled for woman's emansipation. Then he made a poem for me:

you are the one whom i feel here

you are the one whom i see everywhere

you are the one who makes me sing

you are the one who gives me wing

you are the one who comes in my dream

you are the one like my ice-cream

that's what i want to say

that you are the one whom i pray

Well it maybe just a general poem, but it feel very special for me. Knowing that there's someone who can offer such words to me, which the unique thing is he's an Indian who never know before about Kartini. For a moment I feel honored and proud as a woman who respected and admired by a man, no matter how much he knows the meaning of Kartini' Day, or how deep his feelings to me. He tried, and he did it.

The Guy I Was With

Short hair. Childish face. Drop dead tees. Skinny jeans. Vans shoes. Silver car. Black backpack. Black coffee. Red Marlboro. Guinness beer. Scream. Laughing out loud. Metal music. Superman. Mario Bros. Capoeira. Oliver Sykes. Paniki Family. “Good morning” text. Adore another girl.

And I leave him.

The end.

The World As I Like It

I like Russia. The village, Svenska, inspired my middle name, Svensky.

I like The Netherlands. The country is where my grandma came from, and I proud it in my blood.

I like Brazil. The dance and music, samba and bossa nova, shake my world every day.

I like Canada. The singer, Avril Lavigne, always be my favorite. And don’t forget Feist and Simple Plan!

I like USA. The Hollywood movies are the best all over the world.

I like Italy. The foods taste so delicious, especially for my favorite one, lasagna.

I like Greece. The myth became my favorite bed time story when I was a child.

I like China. The Chinatown spread across the world and show how great their nation.

I like India. The people can dance very well and they’re really friendly at all.

I like Japan. The technology helps us. Hiragana, Katakana, and Kanji are so unique.

I like Cambodia. The site, Angkor Wat, is my most favorite dream vacation spot.

I like France. The language sounds sexy and luxurious, and no one doubt the fashion.

I like Germany. The historical figure, Adolf Hitler, was one of the best orators all the time.

I like Singapore. The way they keep country clean makes me envy and stunned at the same time.

I like Palau. The country might be not popular, but I swear it’s the most unique place to explore.

But mostly I like Indonesia. The cultures, the foods, the way we respect other person, everything. No matter how bad news about it in media, no matter how jammed the road, or how dirty the environment. This is the place where I was born, where I’ll spend the rests of my life, where I’m supposed to be. And I really am so proud of it.

World. People. Culture. 

I love.

broke up.

Detik di saat saya menge-post blog ini saya sudah resmi 2 hari menjomblo. Yes, I’ve broke up with him. Bagi teman-teman yang mengenal dan mengetahui bagaimana hubungan kami berdua mungkin ini adalah hal yang cukup disayangkan, melihat bagaimana saya dan dia sangat akrab dan betapa hubungan kami berdua yang walaupun tidak romantis tapi dijalani dengan sangat seru akhirnya harus berakhir dengan masalah yang sama seperti 5 tahun lalu kami berpacaran.

Saya sendiri sebenarnya tidak mau hal ini terjadi. Rasanya sangat disayangkan, setelah semua yang sudah saya alami dan jalani bersama dia, dan bagaimana kami membangun kembali hubungan agar lebih baik dari sebelumnya, bagaimana kami membuat mimpi dan liburan impian bersama, yang selama hampir setahun (bulan depan hubungan kami genap setahun) akhirnya berakhir lagi dengan hal sama. Tapi yah, mau diapa lagi. Sepertinya saya dan dia masih belum berubah setelah 5 tahun. Dia masih dengan kecerobohan dan sifatnya yang tidak konsisten, dan saya masih dengan cemburu dan ego tinggi, ditambah lagi dengan ketakutan akan kehancuran hubungan kami sebelumnya yang kini terjadi kembali. Namun saya rasa mungkin perasaan saya ini masih cukup rasional mengingat bagaimana dulu hati saya tersakiti karena perbuatan dia dan sekarang mungkin dia melakukan serta saya merasakan hal yang sama. And we can’t lie, we’re hurt by each other.

Well, bagaimanapun saya harus menjalani keputusan ini dengan tenang dan tanpa beban. Toh, yang kekeuh untuk mengakhiri hubungan ini adalah saya. Mudah-mudahan ini adalah keputusan yang terbaik. Setidaknya dengan keadaan hubungan kami yang sudah berakhir dan keadaan kami yang terpisah oleh jarak satu sama lain, mungkin bisa menjadi suatu alasan untuk mengintrospeksi diri. Menyadari kesalahan dan kekurangan satu sama lain, serta memikirkan lebih dalam bagaimana hubungan ini seharusnya dijalani dengan lebih dewasa dan belajar menghargai ego satu sama lain.

It’s not so bad after all. Setidaknya nilai positif yang bisa diambil dari keputusan saya ini adalah satu lagi beban yang lepas dari pikiran saya. Saya bisa menghabiskan waktu lebih banyak dengan teman-teman saya, melakukan hal pribadi yang saya senangi, lebih serius dalam pekerjaan, dan belajar memperbaiki diri saya secara pribadi. Memperbaiki ibadah, belajar lebih dewasa, hingga merencakan liburan impian saya sepulang dari Sorowako. Menjadi bebas tanpa harus merasa terkurung dalam sangkar cinta. Dan dengan teman-teman saya yang selalu setia menemani dan menghibur, tidak ada alasan untuk merasa ini keputusan yang salah dan menangisinya.

Jadi, kalau ada yang bilang, “Balikan aja sama dia. Kalian berdua cocok sekali”, maka saya akan menjawab, “Ya, kami cocok, itu sebabnya kami kurang menghargai perbedaan yang ada. Mungkin kalau dia sudah bisa meyakinkan hati saya dan kami berdua sudah bisa lebih dewasa dalam hubungan ini. Mungkin, suatu saat nanti entah kapan. Mungkin…”.

Travel Victim

For people who know me well enough, three things that might describe about me are: traveler, backpacker, and adrenaline junkie. It’s not about me as a talkative and excited girl, it’s about what is the most favorite topic to talk about.

Traveling is my hobby, even my goal is to become a backpacker (yeah, sounds really different with my major). I don’t know for sure since when this became an obsession for me, it might because most of my family travel. I was raised by two parents whose their hobby is traveling, since they’re in college until today they still have a long list of their dream vacation. My cousin, Nuni, instead is a backpacker-holic and already explored almost all corners of Indonesia. Together with his friend, Vira, they capture every moment of their journey in a website named Indohoy. Since I was a child my father always took me when he read or National Geography, that’s why I feel very excited to learn all about geography, places around the world, even I already have many dream vacations to go somewhere, until today.



Dhika, the victim



That’s why I unconsciously talk about traveling, because that’s a daily conversation in my family. Having a friend who also likes traveling seemed glad because I have friends to talk with the same favorite topic, but sometimes I also found my friend doesn’t have any story or experience about traveling. For the second case I always have a mainstay for their stance: suggesting.

I always affect them with stories about me and my family’s travel experience, how mostly of us become a certified scuba diver, even my favorite website to find out any information about traveling. Guess what? Mostly of them rarely affected by these stories and my experience (well, though not infrequently a little story I made redundant).  Yay, it works!

And now, I want to introduce my newest victim: ANDHIKA SAPUTRA AMIR. He's my partner-in-crime as long as I join The Coops Inco. In a few conversations I always show him how excited I am with all things about traveling, and how do I become an adrenaline junkie who is always feel curious to try new things that often is a dangerous thing. And the result, he was positively infected TRAVELING VIRUS! He even said to me, "I think I've begin to be affected. Teach me how to be a backpacker and adrenaline junkie. I want to learn from you ". And the last thing that shows that he really affected is he is also interested to create blogs and learn to write all his experience. He already made it, but not posting anything yet, might be looking for inspiration, or might he still busy with the job. Once again, he asked me to teach him.

See, how I affect him? At least it's not a bad thing to emulate and learn, and I don’t teach anything bad. I just want to share my stories and experiences to others, how to travel and write has given a lot of things in my life. Experiences, life lessons, inspiration, achievement, goals and dreams, or even learn about respect for people and other cultures. Wanna try all the roller coaster in the world as a dream. How to distinguish English and Jerry in the crowd of Europeans, or how to speak English with different dialect such as British, American, Australian, or even, Indian. All of them, precious.

So Dhika, what’s next after Kuching Island and play kayaks? How about visit Lombok and try parasailing or bungee jumping? Just contact me and take me with you. And don't forget to pack a pile of patience!

Let’s go!



It's Like

This is what it feels like. It’s like I’m living in a town that I’m supposed to know, but have never been to before. It’s like passing dozens of shops and staring through every window, but never going in. It’s like smelling a cup of coffee and wondering what it must taste like, but never finding out. It’s like looking at the cover of a book, but never venturing past the first page.

I wonder if I’m the only one who feels this way, distant, and disconnected.

One Post Before Sleep

I'm not going to write anymore. I'm going to sleep. And let me dream of the donkey, playing a song in my honor on his guitar.

I Wish..

I wish it didn’t hurt.

I wish I didn’t care.

I wish it didn’t matter.

I wish I was happy.

I wish I had money.

I wish I was pretty.

I wish I could sleep at night.

I wish I enjoyed my life.

I wish I could just enjoy food.

I wish you were here.

I wish you meant it.

I wish I meant it.

I wish I was different.

I wish I lived somewhere else.

I wish I didn’t exist.

I wish,

I’d never wish anything..

Rest In Peace, Grandpa..

My grandfather died today. Too bad I can't be there to attend the funeral because I still in Sorowako. It feels sad, can’t see him for the last time.

We’re both very close, when I was child my grandfather kept me when my mother went to work. He made ​​lunch lunch for me, he taught me to read Quran, he even sang lullabies to me so I could sleep.

He’s indeed very old, about 90 years. Before go to Sorowako I came to his home to say goodbye because his conditions are already very sick and my mom told me to meet him. I still remember his last message before I left, "Take care, pray for me given the long life", but don’t think he would go faster.

But I still send my best pray to him. Rest in peace granpa, I love you so much ..

Grandfather sings, I dance.

Grandfather speaks, I listen.

Now I sing, who will dance?

Now I speak, who will listen?

Grandfather hunts, I learn.

Grandfather fishes, I clean.

Now I hunt, who will learn?

I fish, who will clean?

Grandfather dies, I weep.

Grandfather buried, I’m left alone.

When I’m dead, who will cry?

When I’m buried, who will be alone?

Nobody Into Somebody

If I were invisible,
hurting me won't be able
you can't feel me
eventhough i'm down on my knee

If I were a superhero
in my worksheets won't be any zero
I'll be the teacher's loveliest
I might pass any kind of test, no less

If I were a famous singer,
I won't play a melody full of anger
no matter what they wrote in mail
I just keep go on and smile

Badly I'm ordinary
I'm a girl not a princess in fairytale
doesn't matter what you wished for
I know I just can't afford.

Here We Go, Here We Are!

We went to Mr. Anton’s home, our Coops Program Coordinator, to celebrate his master's degree yesterday. We had lunch together with Coops participants from Universitas Parahiyangan. I think this was a good moment to know each other deeper. And one thing I always like is the end of the party, photo session!

And here we are:
Madi – Anjun – Paink – Iqra – Raelyn – Dika – Putra – Sandy – Dimas
Milly – Dewa – ME – Susan – Amel – Laurent – Cha’ – Sekar – Santi – Stefan – Mei – Melski – Lele
Bagus – Awa – Tati – Veli – Dhila

Well, I hope it’s gonna be a good friendship among us!

Have You Ever Bumped Into Your Ex ?

The one you fell in love with ?  The one who made you the happiest & cried the hardest ? The one that made you feel like you were the most special thing on Earth ? Once you see that person, you either look down on the ground while your bodies pass one another, you look at them straight in the eye with a smile that may seem like you’re OK, or you go up to them and give them a hug you’d never let go.  It’s hard to see that person with someone else.  You start to think that they’re better off without you, while you feel like a fool who can’t move on.  Just a glimpse of that person, your mind is filled with memories you guys share.  From your first date, your first hug, your first kiss, to your last.  Nothing can erase the memories you had with each other.  You simply can’t let go of feelings & emotions towards someone like that.  It takes time.  But, even with time, there will still be a piece of you that loves that person.

This.

Testing The Strong Ones

I’ve always been perceived as strong, but to be honest, I don’t really feel like I am. People think I’m strong because I’ve been to hell and back, all the while having a smile on my face. They don’t see traces of dried tears on my cheek, they’ve never heard a sob escape my lips. They think I’m strong because because I want to be. But the truth is that I’m strong because I have no other choice. Just once, I’d like for someone to hold me and tell me that it’s okay to be weak.

Music Review: Avril Lavigne - Goodbye Lullaby

Watch out people, Avril is in action. Pop rules! After about four years after her last album, The Best Damn Thing, Avril has released her fourth album, Goodbye Lullaby. 

Things has changed from the latest album of Avril, in addition to the album's songs contain mostly stripped down instruments, such as the piano and acoustic guitar, and now she looks more feminine, rather tend to androgyny, as compared with her performance on Under My Skin that tends to more dark. "I've grown up, so I have to change and try to more feminine," Avril said in a quote in a magazine that I read in the mall last month. 

The album was released on March 2, 2011 contains 14 tracks with bonus tracks Alice which is the soundtrack of the movie Alice In Wonderland, and the main single is What The Hell. You can already download the video on YouTube. The song sounds like Everything Back But You which is on the previous album. This is one of my favorite songs because I like the beat and the lyrics are a little "naughty". 





Another song I like on this album is Push, Smile, and Wish You Were Here. For the last song, the song sounds more mellow, according to the title which tells of the longing for someone. I really like that song because this song really describe what I feel right now, apart from my boyfriend and sometimes I wish he could be here, beside me. 

At least this album could cure how I miss to listen Avril 's song that was already become my inspiration since I was in junior high school. And finally, even Avril was already changed and successfully with the changes. So why do I also don't try to change, and even, try to be more feminine?

Adventurous April!

 

Guess what? Today is April Fools Day! Yay! Well, I don't think 1 April as the time to bullying people, I prefer to think of how to evaluate a quarter of the year had passed. Yes, first quarter is up this year. And I'm pretty proud to say that so far I've received a lot of new experiences, learned many new things, and many things has changed in me. LOTS OF THINGS. 

This is not a big change. Even if you know me well, it may not be seen directly. I still remain someone who excited, talkative, and always making jokes with lots of laughter. But personally I feel the change. At least this time I was absolutely "clean" which means that I've totally quit to be a smoker and drunker. It felt so glad to feel myself more fragrant without the smell of cigarettes and beer, and I can take a deeper breath when I'm swimming. Another thing that might change is how I'm grow up, think with maturation, can control my money better so I can save money for my travel plans to Bali and Raja Ampat, even to be able to watch the International Java Jazz Festival next year. Anything else? Oh yeah, I've got a scholarship from my university!

This year also seems like I become little more introverted person. I was previously often spend time to hang on at the mall, but lately I prefer to stay at home. Reading books, watching movies, writing, anything. I also study to improve my English, I even try to learn French this year. Okay, I don't intend to withdraw from the people around me, I just try to spend my time with something more useful so when I graduate from college I'll have more skills and experiences that could be really important when I work in the future. 

But hey, even if I changed, but I'm still a Jenny. Jenny who is excited and weird girl, and like to try new things. Thit is why I'm very exciting to join a sport tournament who will be followed by One Vale's project employees. I'll join the football with some of Indians, Negroes, Chinese and New Zealander. This month will also be held Diving Course with international certificates, and I'm very interested to join in order to enjoy the sea view at my vacation to Raja Ampat next year. This will be a fun and new experience! 

At least all the fun things have to be balanced with good quality work. Deadline is so close, and I have to deal with 200 new employees who will participate in training and mining tours. This will be a busy and challenging month, but I will, and I swear I can enjoy it. Be struggle, I believe I can beat it!